Rob Cross reveals mental health struggles after feeling ‘too guilty’ to share
By Jonathan Veal, Press Association
Former world champion Rob Cross admits he was “too guilty” to speak out about his mental health issues – but he is now feeling “great” after stopping his medication.
Cross, who won at Alexandra Palace on his debut in 2018, revealed he has been “low on life” but stopped taking tablets in the weeks leading up to the PDC World Championship due to their impact on him.
The 35-year-old’s issues have affected his results, but he was looking like his normal self during a 3-1 win over Ian White in the second round at Ally Pally.
Asked what had changed in recent weeks, he replied: “I have stopped taking my tablets.
“I was on them, I felt low in life, like we all do. Too guilty to speak out for it.
“I just stopped and thought I was better off being mates with the person inside me instead of trying to shut him off with no emotions.
“I have stopped them before I came here, I am OK, I feel great. It brings the hyperness out, instead of locking something away, because that is what they do to me.
“If I had stayed on it, I would have been out first round.
“I have suffered with it for a long, long time, this is the first interview where I have ever admitted to it.
“We all get low and we all grow up and we think to ourselves that we should be stronger and you can’t show weakness.
“And that’s where I’m at, I’m guilty of not expressing myself to the people that I trust with my own life.”
Cross, who also suffers from ADHD, says his problems are not related to his life as a professional darts player.
“It hit a point where I needed a bit of help,” he added.
“It’s not darts, I would have these problems even without the darts.
“That’s the important bit. You could have every bit of money in the world but if you are not happy, you’re not happy.
“It’s not about money or objects. Anyone that feels like that needs to talk. We can only wear so much as human beings, sometimes you need that extra help.”
If you have been affected by any of the issues raised in this article, you can freephone the Samaritans 24 hours a day for confidential support at i or email i.
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In the case of an emergency, or if you or someone you know is at risk of suicide or self-harm, dial 999/112.